for those who care, here are a few that my sister took. some are a little fuzzy, but we have not got the other ones yet. so these will do.

So this is about half the crowd that was there. very small wedding!






Me in the car on the way there. (stupid corset made it really hard to sit at the angle cars usualy insist you sit at. which is why I had to sit straight up against the back with my head against the back window. it was not fun.)





Walking down the isle with my parents.





Just after the actual Ceremony part (which was about 15 minutes long. thank goodness cuz it was FREEZING cold. although the rain held off until after pictures. I was actually warm enough but my bridesmaid was so cold. the best man gave her his jacket in the middle of the vows )





General Kissage. although if you look hard enough I am trying SO hard not to laugh. mostly because they are all trying to get a picture of it and we had been lip locked for about 3 minutes while ppl were directing us. it was strange.




anyway, thats it! I still have to get the pictures of our Honeymoon in Tofino, but that is a lot of pictures of open sandy beaches and crashing Surf and pretty trees,so I probly won't post it

I'm out!

So, we have 3 days left til the wedding. What I want to know is how many people are scared out of their wits before their wedding, because me and Gord have heard nothing but "are you scared?" "ooh its your last week of freedom" and " are you sure your not gonna back out from nerves?". I mean, WTF? I"m starting to feel like the only people in the world who the idea of Marriage seems natural and exciting, but not in the slightest bit nerve-racking. Gord's Co-workers are really starting to bug him with this kinda talk. Of course he is in the works yard with all the middle aged, machine driving, drinkin with the guys, married for 15 years kinda people, so its kind of to be expected. but still. give it a rest already

I have no problem with feeling unsure or scared or nervous or anything. Not even about the prepareations for the wedding event. I mean, I have my dress, flowers, pastor, paperwork. so everything else is details. heck, even if the pastor gets stuck in Arizona where he is on holiday until friday and can't make it, we will just call another one, or find a JOP as soon as we can. meh. It will all work out somehow.

What I wonder is if this lack of nerves is because the actual wedding part is so casual and generally as simple as I could get away with. I have no professionals of any kind, its all family, and very small. I could see being much more stressed out if I was trying to have a big formal detail heavy type affair. Maybe that stress is what people see as nerves. hmmm..

I just don't get it

YAY!!! I am done. like totally exams and everything done! (for 3 weeks but shhhhhh, its gonna be a crazy fun 3 weeks!)

I want to celebrate. Do something totally de-stressing and fun. that does not involve alcohol cuz that is just bad. any suggestions?

oh yeah. it has to fit in after the fiance's grandparents come over and fuss and scowl over my housekeeping setup. His grandfathers girlfriend, who is your typical little old conservative lady, has already asked me the vital questions like do I like to cook? (yes but not as much as Gord does),

am I good at cooking? (give me a recipie and I can do anything you give me the equiptment for cuz my selection of kitchen supplies is limited),

am I glad I am out of my parents so I can keep my own house clean for a change? (heck, I"m glad I am out of my parents so I can make my own mess and not get yelled at if I don't get around to cleaning it up for a few hours. or days)

When do I want to have kids? (give me a few years with the boy and we will see! after I get my degree at least! and we have to go to europe first)

Am I gonna work when we have kids? (not if the cost of living goes down. otherwise, probably some.)

course if I were to say any of those things I would give the poor woman a heart attack. oh well. she will have to settle for snooping around my house. this one time. cuz it is new. as long as my drawers are left unopened we should be fine. Course if she opens my bedside table drawer she deserves whatever heart attack she gets from the shock of what its contents implys! HEY! I"m gonna be married in a week. I gotta start stocking up!

Keep in mind, this is the GIRLFRIEND of Gord's grandfather. not even technically family. oh well. He is a bit an old european pill himself. With the old fashioned values of "entertain me for I am supreme patriarch of this family"

Gord's grandmother (on the other side) would probably just twitter and wink at my bedside table. she is tooo adorable.

anyway, nice enough people in the right setting. but I have to put on my hostess face tonight, and I am not looking forward to it. Last time I was at their place, there was a 3 course snack, served on fancy plates as she walked around the room with the platters. I don't do that. I put out a bowl of munchies and a pitcher of juice and call it done. Call me newfangled.

ANYWAY, back to contemplating the wonderful nothingness that is the "have to" plans for this weekend. oh shoot. I have to give a talk in church on sunday. I take it back. I gotta fit that into the batchelorette party fun somewhere too. *sigh* It never ends.

Thats it. just AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

*hair pulling stressed out me*

pretty much says it all.

I have never had this much trouble focusing on an assignment before! its annoyin the heck out of me. And I keep finding other things to do instead. like Blogging.

Anyway I have the coolest English Prof EVER. She took the whole class out for drinks and appy's yesterday instead of going to class. It was awesome. I don't drink alcohol, but virgin margaritas are amazing! as is milestones popcorn shrimp.. mmmmmmm.... It was kinda strange sitting there discussing stuff like cute geeky faculty, chest sizes, and travel plans with a teacher. as you could probably tell our class was mostly girls anyway. awesome time. especially when Karen (the teacher) got a little drunk. SO funny!

and I got to impress the heck out of the whole class with my knowledge of how to jump a car and my recognition of alternator problems. It was funny. I know next to nothing about cars, but I have has 3 junkers in the last few years, and had to replace the alternator in all 3 of them. so I know what that looks like!

Anyway, I really have to go beat my head into submission over this essay thing. I still have another one to do for tuesday too!

I'll be around!

Okay, so I downloaded a copy of Buffy Season 7. Bad me, I know. But I own all the other ones and REALLY didn't like Season 7, but figured I should have it for continuity and completeness. I might buy it one day. HOWEVER, the point is that I have been watching it, and when I come to the episode "Touched", the person who ripped the copy cut out the sex scene! I mean seriously! If you don't wanna watch the occational not-even -any-nudity sex scene, this is really the wrong show for you!

Course, I think it may have something to do with someones supermorality and the prevalance of Gay Willow/Kennedy Love. But I mean seriously, what? Violence, Devil Worship, Demons, Black Magic, and Ripping DVD's is okay, but two girls kissing warrents censorship? *sigh* I don't get people. I mean, I respect that some people don't wanna see it, but its none of their business if I do. And its jarring to the flow of the show. And if they are in the business of supplying a product, it should be intact!

anyway, gotta go watch the old recorded VHS copy I have to get over the annoying censorship frustration!

I"m out!

How much Crap can one fit into a 7x10 foot room? with a Queen sized bed in it!??

I am packing to move tommorrow (YAY we get our apartment tomorrow!) and I have an amazing amount of stuff. I am throwing all kinds of things out, and have boxes filled with stuff like extra purses, candles, books I forgot to pack in the book boxes, jewelry, and caligraphy pens. I thought I hardly owned anything. boy am I ever glad I am not packing a whole house! Luckily, I am coming back here for a couple weeks before the wedding, so I will have time to pack or trash the dregs of my belongings. Who ever had this brilliant idea that moving around the end of the semester would be okay should be shot. oh wait. that was me. crap. *sigh*

Anyway, on the plus side, I am very excited cuz I am FINALLY moving out of my Parents house! YAY. and its a nice apartment and eventually it will be me AND Gord and that is just cool and he bought me a corner, red cherry desk with a hutch and everything. SO nice! He spoils me rotten sometimes. Always a good thing to look for in a man.. And to think, I almost married someone who I would have to support with my minimum wage job.... Phew.

Anyway, back to dust stirring and feeling guilty that I am not doing homework because I am packing. gr. I have a week to do a 3000 word paper I have not really started yet. plus a hand full of smaller 1500 word essays that I sort of have started.

And I"m off again!

If I could have a supernatural power of some kind, I would do one of 2 things. The first would be to have the ability to think something onto paper (or in this case computer screen) that way I do not have to waste all this time and energy organizing my thoughts and typing. For example, I have this story in my head, and I managed to get the short version onto paper once, but the long version is still rattling around in there. If I had this ability, I would be able to just will it to be written, and it would. with perfect grammer and everything. A direct link out of my brain into a hard format. Or, I would do the same thing for this paper that I am having such a hard time with that it is overdue. BAD me! Typing and planning and organizing take so much time its annoying.

The other thing, and actually probably the first thing I would do is have the ability to take on any characteristic of any fictional character I want, from books or movies or whatever. This probably gives me every power in the book, not to mention some interesting personality choises. so to keep it from being completely all powerful, it would have to be from any character I know about, and probably only one power at a time. This of course means that I can WRITE a story about a character who can think papers into exsistance, and I would be able to do it! or I could fly. or I could say all those witty, clever things I would love to say if I ever thought of them at just the right moment, or any thing else you have ever admired in a character.
To be fair, I stole this idea from Gord. He thought of it first and I tweaked it

Anyway, back to the long way of doing things. *sigh*

Pressing onward!

so, I am neck deep in school stuff. you know it is bad when you feel guilty for taking 10 minutes at 10:30 at night to mess around on your blog and type random things, cuz you really could be doing something constructive. and this is all after 2 oral presentations, a meeting with the arts advisor, and a midterm, all in the same day. *sigh* ah well. another 60 days of this and I will be on my honey moon.

Thats right, I started the official countdown today. It is 60 days til my wedding. YAY! I am very excited, in case you can't tell anyway, lots to do between now and then. and I am starting to doze off and I am sure my ramblings are becoming less and less coherant (much like my presentation today when the nerves hit me. in the gorram middle of the blasted thing! what a time to get nervous! when its almost over!) anyway, I am gonna go watch some Buffy (Season 3, Faith just turned evil) and go to bed. I think

Xan